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Iwillbeperfectx3
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Birthday: 9/22/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: losing weight, music, shopping, writing, hanging out
Start: August 22, 2005
SW:200 HW:215
GOALS:
GW: 180lbs (by 9/22/05)
GW2:170lbs (by 9/22/05)
GW3:150lbs (by 10/22/05)
GW4:130lbs (by 12/22/05)
UGW:110lbs
Expertise: eating too much
Message: message me
Member Since:
8/22/2005
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| Ok I missed my update promose by two days. Sry. 123. Works been crazy...Im already up to get ready for today, yeah. Im single for summer. Hooray. I hated coming second to everything else. g2g I still have to shower & change before I can leave. | | |
| I'm sorry I havent updated. I got a job, work work work. Our computer crashed && we had to get new windows. I was also sick...I had to have my tonsils out. Im doing horribly though. 125. ugh only 5lbs in almost 2 months. INSANELY BAD. My mom has been watching me so closely.....making sure I stay hydrated && eat. I cant stand it. My bf does the same thing. He says I cant get skinnier than he is (he weighs 112...ugh it makes me sick Im so fat next to him) no hes not anorexic or anything, just naturally skinny as hell. Ever envied your bfs metabolism? I do. Summer is here. Softball starts soon...I cant wait. Tennis already started but I havent been able to play much so that sucks. Okay Im going now. I got a little slack on my hours for now so I will be updating atleast one more time before june && I do meant that this time. I havent forgotten about any of you, I just havent had time for xanga && Im sorry.
New pic. Sorry its so dark && small...camera phone. You can practically see the food just sitting in there turning to fat. Disgusting. Im ashamed this is my body...I wish I could just wake up && be perfect or not wake up at all. | | |
| I am back for good this time. Schools pretty much done with til August I just have some busy work to do. Right now Im fasting (go me) && when I do eat my intake is staying under 300 or else..seriously. Summer is coming && I have to look alot better than I do. CW: 130 && we have to do something about that NOW. | | |
| School sucks. Boys suck. Eating sucks. Family sucks. Friends suck.
Cousin had the baby...beautiful healthy little girl. && I hope she never EVER thinks shes is less than beautiful because shes not. Theyre both okay && Im very happy about that, we got scared for a little bit when they had to take her emergency c-section. But the family is doing great && right now that baby is the only positive thing in my life. | | |
| Ive never been so busy in my life. Its like since theres only 10weeks til summer break, I have to work my ass off doubletime to get everything done. CW? hell who knows. I havent had time to weigh-in which also means...I havent had time to eat unless theres someone there shoving the food down my throat. Which seems to be happening alot lately. I guess this is just an update to let whoever it matters to know I am still alive. I wont be fully back until after this week because of school. But yeah, Im still here && unhappy as ever. But we cant have it all can we? All I wanted was a boy who wouldnt hurt me...I found one, then we drifted apart so fast...then he was back && things were fine. Now? I dont even want him anymore, I want my dumb jackass ex who has a girlfriend && seems to have moved on just fine. We talk everyday, great friends...but those feelings have always been there for me, still are. Does he feel the same way still? Doubtful.
I have to go though, I just figured Id update this before I got ready. I really do love all of you who ever read this or commented me...thanks for caring atleast a little bit. It seems at times youre the only ones who do.
Oh yeah, my cousin still hasnt had the baby...shes getting induced sometime here very soon...idk when but I will keep you posted since some of you were wondering. | | |
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